connection can feel iffy

late night grocery runs
long phone call holds
home feels like work
hugs are portion-controlled
growth seasons underground
coming up from restless naps
tasks I label “dull and void of joy”
days that look like yesterday
moments He and I feel like 2

but he’s
still right here

pressure lifts
when I lay the world down
and look

the Friend is inside
the life-long lover
intertwined in me