DSC_0474Whenever a person spends time with God, his hunger increases for the presence of God.

My hunger for my Dad has gotten to the point where the physical is unwanted. I want His realm.

This is good. But His heart goes further than just a heavenly realm.

We separate the physical and spiritual worlds because we believe that the two are totally different realms, but in reality, they are part of the same world. Whenever we see a miracle, that is a collision of both worlds. But if we could see it all the time, we would know that they are always mixed.

It all starts with the mind. “Be transformed by the renewing of your mind, then you will be able to test and approve the good, and wonderful ways of God” (Rom 12). Unfortunately, Satan has filled our minds with so many lies that it has become hard for us to believe and see physically and spiritually every second we breathe. Our minds have become so polluted with worldly smog that we cannot see all of the sun (Son) and its (His) affects on the world. For example, in Bangladesh, the smog hides the sun and though there is light, we do not get to experience and enjoy the fullness of the sun.

God speaks promises and truth about His pure world in Jeremiah 31: “Again you shall take up your tambourines, and go forth to the dances of merrymakers. Again you shall plant vineyards on the hills of Samaria; the planters shall plant and shall enjoy them. For there shall be a day when watchmen on the hills of Ephraim shall call out ‘Arise, and let us go up to Zion, to the Lord our God’…I the Lord will fill the souls of My priests with abundance, My fatness, and they shall be satisfied with My goodness.”

Jesus says, “I came that you may have abundant life now!” (John 10)

It seems like God wants to take us out of the faith that says, “I trust you God”, and into a much deeper, more intimate way of life. Of course, Faith is not about feeling the presence of God, BUT God wants us to feel His presence just as much as (if not more than) having faith in Him. We should never settle for being okay with just having “faith” in God, but eternally long for the manifest presence of God.

And so I say, “God, I want that life, I want you now!”

But I don’t understand patience yet, and my longing becomes frustration because my Love is not satisfying my hunger right now. I start separating the physical and spiritual: I have no clue what I’m doing, trying to love the God of the Universe. I know He is with me, but all I see is the room I sit in. Why can’t I see and know my Daddy right now, the way He sees and knows me?

The physical mindset latches onto my thoughts.

The Spirit whispers, “Be transformed! Renew your mind by the thoughts and things of God!”

Waiting hurts. Growling, empty stomachs are uncomfortable, and sometimes painful. But here is what Jesus does for those who hunger.

Remember Lazarus? He was brother to Martha and Mary, the same Mary who loved Jesus so passionately by anointing and wiping His feet with perfume and her hair. Jesus deeply loved these people. But Lazarus gets sick, and the girls beg Jesus to come. But instead of fulfilling their longing, He stays two more days where He is, and Lazarus dies.

Our first reaction might be, “WHAT?! THAT’S OUTRAGEOUS!”  Why in the world would Jesus let his friend die; how could he just stand idle and treat the sisters that way?

Jesus explains himself saying, “This is for the glory of God, that the Son of God may be glorified by it”… Let me translate. To glorify is to increase beauty, so Jesus says, “This is so, that I may become more beautiful to these people.”

“I wait because I want  to become more beautiful to you, in you, and through you.

“I wait because I do not want to give you a synonym of me, a metaphor or simile. I want to give you My own definition of Myself. I want to teach you what it means to call Me Daddy, to know what patience and love look like in their raw forms.”

“I wait because I want to make your heart more rich than the earth that is so dark and full of minerals, rich like beautiful soil that is ready to be used for planting and harvesting.”

“I wait because the more you hunger, the more you can be filled. I am endless; I want to teach you how to be endless.”

Jesus then yells at death and says, “Hand him over to Me! Lazarus, come out!” Jesus wants to bring out the beauty and life out of you for the world to see, that they may desire Beauty and Life.

We are His beloved forever and nothing will ever change His mind.


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